WHO WILL YOU CHOOSE???
Hello again my AMAZING fellow mommies!
So, in the recent months, I was presented with a job opportunity that would allow my kiddos and I to relocated back to the DFW, TX area. It was a lateral move with double the pay, working in a familiar environment with a former employer. The offer came during a time I had been eager for change and seeking the Lord on next steps. Well, the kicker is that after negotiating a start date, the employer was only able to push the date out to April 2022. With many things to consider, including my middle schooler and I graduating in May 2022, this decision was hard! Come on God…double the pay. It seemed like the doors were opening wide, but I just didn’t feel 100% comfortable with the option to allow my eighth grader to stay behind with a family member to finish out the school year. With so much change within our family dynamic, I went back and forth on my decision. In the meantime, I went through the process to relocate, thinking, “let me do my part”, inwardly hoping God would co-sign on my heart’s desires. I was only one signature short of securing our new apartment home. I even built up the courage to share the great news with close friends and family, and my support system was in place ready to step in. I notified my direct supervisor, and she was nothing short of supportive and affirming as she knew my heart’s desire to eventually return to the Dallas, TX area.
Then, in the wee hours of the morning, I awoke from sleep. I sat up in my bed unsure why I awoke in the first place. Then, I heard a still small voice say, “wait”. With tears in my eyes, I knew that obedience was better than sacrifice as I slowly laid back down and drifted off to sleep.
The next day, I had to notify the employer of my decision to decline the offer that I had accepted as it was apparently clear the timing to transition was delayed, BUT “not denied”. That little catch phrase was a slight reassurance that a future opportunity would come again, even though I had to grapple with the when, what, why, how this would happen when this current opportunity was right in my face (sigh).
I was desperate to choose the better pay and the environment I knew my kiddos and I could thrive in, after all, I knew the Lord was leading us there. However, timing is everything and seasons matter to God more than we know. The right job and location at the wrong time can shift your life in a negative way. What would have been a blessing in the perfect season would now be labeled a disaster out of season. I resisted the urge to choose my desires and timing trust God’s timing although I can no clue to what my next would look like.
So, mommas, as we examine each moment of our lives and are tempted to move in our own timing, let’s be still long enough (even if God has to wake us up in the middle of the night) to hear the sweat subtle voice of our father who knows what’s best for use, even when we don’t understand the outcome.
I CHOSE HIM! WHO WILL YOU CHOOSE TODAY???
Signed,
Monique Jameison, Founder and CEO
Moms R The B.O.M.B.com (burnt Out Mommy Blog)